went to a funeral

hung out in a bar with a lot of clowns, got purified in a trial by herbs, met Dzieci Theater group. 
but nobody sent me the memo about bringing the sad umbrellas – I brought my happy umbrella.
but I did wear my funeral hat and pants.  but I spilled on my stripey shirt on the way home on the train.

the dearly departed and offerings
the dearly departed and offerings

What I need to know is:
if you don’t actually remove a piece and swallow – have you actually taken a bite? “taken” being the operative word here. and how far out of the garden are you banished, if you have only tasted the apple? do you get visiting rights every other weekend? 

I was ordered to bite the apple – so I did.  but after that I didn’t get any directions.  and then I got whipped with herbs.  not with Herb, but by herbs. 
And I lost my clown scissors and little fleece flower in Grand Central Terminal.  I still haven’t told the Mommy and Daddy flower that I lost their baby.  My attorney hasnt’ returned my text yet, and I need to know what liability exposure I’m lookin’ at here.

Magical Time

I went to NY Goofs Winter intensive.  It was sorta a rerun of Clown School only in fast forward…. psychologically and emotionally.  It was a Friday nite, and Saturday, Sunday affair.  Friday nite after the session, I went back to the B&B and went through the emotional loop I experienced at Clown School.  
“I want to do well”  “I want Dick Monday to think I do well”  “I want Jeff Gordoon to think I do well” and so on and so forth so much so that I was all wrapped up in self consciousness and anxiety to do well at all.  

I unplugged that loop of roof brain chatter in time to be able to be more open and receptive on Saturday.  I was able to work again with Dr. Molar Magic and I met some interesting new people too.  On Sunday in the middle of afternoon, Tiffany came back with a crew of some of the “most famous” in the clown world, and had the comment  “Look who I found skulking around Times Square”.  So not only was I working with Monday and Gordoon, but Christensen, Lubin and a few others were added to the mix.  I had the opportunity to suck in front of a whos who of clowns.  however ….. 

something wonderful happened for me. On sunday I had been doing much better than ever.  Nothing like a session of Slo-Mo pantomime fighting to just relax and break down psychological barriers.  Later we had been doing the hitchiker duo setup – where one person is driving, and picks up the other.  the “passenger” brings a mood, and the driver just has to go there!  I was beginning to find that place where improv can be allowed to happen.  Then we were doing the Caveman-Discover premise in which you work in a trio and are given the task of discovering something.   We were tasked with discovering “dancing”.   I was working with Dr. Molar (Bruce) and a well know hospital clown. The hospital clown was in the auguste role, and knew how to use it to help us other stumbler and fumblers out.  I fell into the contra-auguste role, and Bruce was the White clown role.   I had a breakthrough, and finally (FINALLY) found the rhythm of working with others …. relaxing and letting the flow …. flow.   I finally was not STiFF.  We played it out, and we had all those “famous’ clowns laughing.  

And Monday did notice that I had made a breakthrough.  The funny thing was, as I was getting ready to leave, I knew myself that I had done well, and the fact that he also noticed that I had was only gravy.  It probably is not possible for me to convey how significant this weekend was for me in my vision of myself, and my confidence for the future plans.

Mardi Gras 2008

After days of work on the froufrou for the ambiance, ViviAnn went to Mardi-Gras.  Not sure if I think this outfit works well as pure clown.  It worked well for Mardi Gras, as it is more a “person” in a costume as a clown in a mask, than a pure clown character.  Viviann at Mardi Gras 2008
Too many folks want to relate to me as “myself” at this event, which in the end left me a little deflated.  I don’t think I really had fun, either as myself or as a clown.  Certainly the clown didn’t get to clown a lot in a big way.  I had more freedome to clown when I was a more “pure” clown in appearance.  It is the hair I think – need more clowny and less natural looking hair. 

Passed my “First of May” Milestone

quick notes:

  • Vivi the girl needs to ALWAYS wear the girl type hair – this look is more Vivi the sophisticate fashion plate.
  • I shoulda worn the cuffs turned up. NOte: always try ON your socks too with the whole outfit. buy more overthe knee socks – lots more.
  • have more courage to be out there and clown. dont think so much. enjoy more.
  • clowns don’t do balloons. BUBBA says so. good. unless they clown with balloons
  • venue = volume. great costume for clown therapy, but a little “soft” in parade venue. could get similar outfit with diff jacket and higher “volume” for parades. and wear the cuffs UP!!!!
  • Lady needs clown collar for hot days. even today was too hot for her cape.
  • Not all clowns are friendly. Not all clowns want to clown in face when in the alley. Sadly, not all clowns want to clown in a parade.
  • Wish my flower hadn’t broke. Wish my makeup was better. Wish I had worn my overall cuffs up.
  • If I am representing a therapy clown in a parade, be the kinder gentler clown when in the up close moments, but OK to be broader clown in the street.  tell dog jokes. when up close in “parade petting” mode:  make jokes about the dog.  make jokes about the dog getting all the attention. etc etc etc
  • L00k needs to match CHARACTER needs to match MOVEMENT and VOICE.

VIVI ann & Toby

Vivi-Ann Entertainer Extraordinaire

ViviAnn is OFFthis was perhaps akin to a tryout in Boston.  what could be more apropos than Vivi-Ann, the MOD clown, at a 60s themed Employee Recognition event.

it was hard.  partly because constantly clowning a crowd for even a half hour is hard.  this stint was for about 2 hours, with a wee break here and there.  partly because I had to sew up some bloomers early that AM to be “decent” all of the time under the mini-dress.  partly because I was recovering from a back sprain and partly because I was fighting an earache and head cold.Vivi Plays Rock n Roll

Make a Note:  Always pack heavy duty antihistimines as part of a standard clown kit.

This gig was difficult mostly because I KNOW all these people and work with them every day, and would see them again the next day and the next.  I didn’t feel really “connected”., but I was in  a very real and official way – “out there”  just “doing it”. 

To Beat the Band!!!

All the feedback I have gotten and the hubby has gotten has been good. “Very entertaining” was a common theme in the remarks.  The best were the compliments from our campus director.  I had a chat with him (in character), about my experiences.   

However, it is another occasion for the Pisoni cycle of MMMM – and here are my R-reflections:

I need to get a nose tip for this outfit – in sparkles.  Even a small round nose is too “nosey” and knobby. 
I need to stuff the hat top and fix it to the hair  AND remember to ALWAYS pin the wig to my real hear at least twice.  
The wig is OK without the hat. 

I need to be aware of the props in my hands.  I am always making a picture.  Too much stuff shouldn’t be hanging out of purse, or I shouldn’t be holding onto many pieces unless there is a purpose. 

The 20% chance of rain joke with the little umbrella was great.  It truly was inspired by the actual weather forecast – that is why I wore the galoshes.  But the only clown umbrella I had was a teeny one, and I thought : “Gee its a 20% chance of rain one.”  How about that.  I actually wrote a funny joke.
I need more oomph and Out-there-ness!!! Maybe this would have come easier If I hadn’t been feelingn poorly overall.  I also need to work on my horribly neutral posture a lot of the time.

Make a Note:  Clown is All or nuthin’ much.


Making Lists

these are lists of things I have done/decided so far. Italicized items are not yet ordered.

Ambiance giveaways:
Paper purse goodie bag with:
   Mini Hand clapper
   Pastel M*ms and/or other candy (see list below)
Jelly braceet
Clown nose
Polka dot Hat
Foam Sunglasses


Ecofetti in signature colors

Lobby Decor:
Flower Garlands
Colored streamers
Tissue Balloons – foldouts, asst colors & sizes


Theater Piece:
Professionally made Angel wings – Wide & short white feathers with polkadot chiffon add-ins
Cheesy feather-boa halo on wire headband
Braids wig – with wiredup pony groups
Handheld confetti or streamer cannon

{Illustrated pix above are products of Oriental Trading company – www.orientaltrading.com}

I will buy candy from http://candydiscounters.com/ but need to wait to order it so it will be fresher. They have pastel colored candies like M&Ms which they tout to be from a better candy company.  At any rate, they are a much better value. For the price of M&Ms brand, I can get all the candy.  And I don’t have to buy it in those little packages either.
French Mints 5 lb Bag @ $4.65 per lb $23.25
Fruit Slices Jelly Candy 5 lb Bag @ $1.82 per lb $9.10
Fruit Slices Miniature Assorted 5 lb Box @ $4.72 per lb $23.60
Smooth & Melty Mini Pastel Mints by Guttitard 5 lb Bag @ $5.32
er lb $26.60
Colorwheel Gourmet Chocolate Candies “YELLOW PASTEL” 1 pound bag $7.25
Colorwheel Gourmet Chocolate Candies “WHITE” 1 pound bag $7.25
Colorwheel Gourmet Chocolate Candies “PINK BRIGHT” 1 pound bag $7.25
Colorwheel Gourmet Chocolate Candies “LIME GREEN” 1 pound bag $7.25
Laffy Taffy 8 Flavor Assorted 4 lb Bag @ 4.36 per lb $17.44

So I have to make my own baggies….

http://www.candywarehouse.com/fluffystuff.html – they sell premade cotton candy
These would be nice if Icould find in resonable quantity:
Life Savers Candy singles – Pastels (but I don’t need 900…)
LIfe Savers Pastel Jelly Beans

Full Throttle Ahead

Angel wings and halos on eBay.  Order this week.
Add polkadot chiffon to make wings longer.  Pink wings & polka chiffon would mean white outfit and striped tites.  Funny panties.  Braids wig.

Order noses and makeup tomorrow.  from proknows distributors.

Okay.  Send msg to Missoula with plans.

Ask Diane.

Mornings drumming hopefully.
Afternoons – clown busking.   Clown teaching? – Woosh. 
Clown presentation. – decorate room in morning of presentation with card, hat, and gift pursies.  Create anticipation.  And EcoFetti – http://www.ecoparti.com/toec.html  Small Bag – 8 bucks per color; Med bag 11bucks – Signature colors: Shamrock, Vib. Yellow, Bright Pink. maybe need white also.

Createing ambiance:
With Lobby presentation – make as much a carnival as possible – cotton candy machine?  Definitely DONUTS.  Round eaties in colors – Jellies candy find this in bulk. Pastel Mints.   Pastel M&Ms  ( OTrad has foil wrapped bubble gum coins Item Number: IN-/K160 )Cake? Drinks?  Assistants in lite clown makeup. Item Number: IN-17/17 Flower Balloons – OTrd  MULTI COLOR TISSUE FLOWER GARLAND  Item Number: IN-3/132   4 bucks per 9 ft.  with reg streamers.

Giftie kits – nose, clown activities?, toys.  Item Number: IN-39/1568 Mini Hand Clappers – Oriental Trading FUNKY PRINT MINI HANDBAG GIFT BAGS Item Number: IN-26/1864 absolutely perfect – clown flower purses and 3 bucks per dozen POLKA DOT DERBY HATS Item Number: IN-25/561 Jellybeans in bags

Show – balloon release.  confetti – in circles and flowers preferably.  Ask at http://www.fanfarefx.com/4.html about a confetti drop. or at http://artistryinmotion.com/customshapes/customshapes.html  preloaded handheld CO2 cannons or from http://www.spfx.com/handheld.html  but this place looks most promising:
so many choices – recored here and choose soon

cheap handhelds: http://www.premierglow.com/Party_Novelties.35/Confetti_Cannon_Hand_Held.21.html?gclid=CKKooLy7gIwCFRGCGgodnSYZzA 
Stumps has perfect RETRO confetti – www.stumpsprom.com  2.59/ 1 oz. pkg – see if has in bulk.  Also has pattern in gossamer (see if can ship direct to Missoula)  Also could consider cloud gossamer.  Could make ties to hould up balloon drop with gossamer.  Stumps aso has a balloon bag – http://www.stumpsprom.com/catalog.cfm?caid=665213.

Work on script.  Find out chord – tune ukie.  Write Monday.

Send ukie to Wilm for knobbie.

Business cards
Brochure – can wait if need be
Show announcment – Vinvi Ann Full Throttle – with blank date for wreiting in if necessary.

Collect photos. – Ask Ken to do every week. 2hrs or so – make Powerpoint templante.


Back to Studio 5 and more Mask Work

Another session with Per Brahe.
Similar structure but some different masks.
More confident of process, however I did trip over two folks out of my range of vision – I checked only high range not down to my feet.

These are some rough notes I made after the end of movement session in cool down.

Full Body Warmup
all warmups are done to pretty passionate new age music
“Moving Mask” – Per’s original design from William Blake’s Puck (green)
“Moving Mask” – Per’s collection of what I might term larval masks
“Healing Mask” – Per’s own collection of wooden clown noses on strings
“Healing Mask” – Per’s collection of Angel Masks

In my session with the Puck mask, I felt like a temple acolyte and every movement had to be worshipful of the room, the others, and the light.

In my session with the larval mask, I was overcome with a “shit happens and then you die” feeling. It didn’t seem to make any sense to make the effort to stand up, so I lurched around on my knees. I felt free in speaking, but it was all of complaint. I wish I could remember the one phrase that kept coming back again and again. I was told at the end of the session I was wearing “the grotesque” mask.

My session with the clown nose, was of course a joy. However, I am not sure I was as open to the mask as I could have been.

The angel mask experience for me was quite low key this time but deep. I had gone as I was in a black state of creative despair, and was having a hard time finding a way out of it. I know the mask work “worked”, as although it wasn’t a joyous, or thrilling, or any type of emotional or spiritual rush, the angel mask opened up the locked place. I was open again and calm. And very appreciative. My angel mask had a heart shaped jewel set in forehead.
These are some other quick notes I made.

Per told the Kali – Dorgon story from Hindu mythology.
“Training of the American Actor”
Per comments:

“Narcissists can’t do mask work as they have to be willing to let go thir false images of the self, which they work overtime to maintain”

“The mask connects with the image memory in the muscles and releases it.
“The thought or image inside the mask goes into you, activates these memories, and then move, and balance the body”

He also related the story of the mask maker whose father had died, and when he went to see about starting the work on some new masks, this artisan could not work for 2 weeks. He also spoke of not even working on sketches or designs if he wasn’t in the right emotional state, lest his negative energy be transferred to the process and the mask.